So, it’s New Year’s Eve. I’ve never really understood this need to make a big deal about the end/beginning of a year. It’s just another day. Maybe it’s just the excuse to have fireworks, drink excessively, stay out late, and prepare for a few days of college football. Whatever it is…it’s just another day for me.
That said, I wanted to try to put down on paper (metaphorically speaking, of course) my 2012. Consider this my version of a Christmas letter. With social media, I feel like most of my friends already know all of this, but here goes.
Honestly, I can’t even believe 2012 is over. I feel like nothing happened in 2012 for me. Maybe it didn’t. Maybe that’s why I feel like it’s gone so fast. Let’s find out.
Let’s start with the most fun of my 2012. My concert attendance! The La Crosse Center welcomed Volbeat, Megadeth, and Zombie; some random small-town festival in Arcadia brought in Trapt, and a trip to Iowa of all places gave us the Tresspass America Festival. The Tresspass show had, like, 8 bands, but the important part of that was seeing Five Finger Death Punch. My concert buddy, Ashley, and I had said early this year that we were getting tickets if they came anywhere near us. Who know that Waterloo, IA would be that place! (Side note: 5FDP's
American Capitalist album was my fave of 2012.)
Also in 2012, my spoiled rotten, 4-legged little buddy decided he was no longer going to tolerate and eat food purchased at the store…even really expensive food. Thus started us on our journey of a homemade diet. It kills my bank account every week and eats up about three hours out of every weekend…BUT…he loves it, he seems happy, and we’ve not had to go to the vet in a long time. I know my time with him is winding down, and so we will continue down our homemade diet path.
The majority of the work on the house was complete. Finishing the basement was my last big project, and that was done somewhere around Memorial Day. I have been informed that I will be receiving a small sum of money from my grandmother’s estate, so the wheels are turning with a possible additional project. Or I can make a bigger house payment. Or I can travel with it. Or I can save it. Who am I kidding…it’ll be a house project!
One of the biggest things 2012 brought me was a restructuring of finances, which included the canceling of cable. This was a super big decision for me…mostly because I gave up a lot of sports. However, what I gained was this immense amount of time I never recognized I had lost. I can still access every single sporting event I want…on the radio. A little satellite radio or the TuneIn Radio app and I’m good to go. While I’m listing to a game or race, I can be doing something else. The best situation is when I can be sitting in a lawn chair in the back yard with a beer doing nothing but listening. If I had cable, I’d be trapped on the couch. Of course, the other big advantage to ditching cable was the sheer amount of books I can now read. In October/November, I was averaging four books/week. (Stay tuned for my 2012 fave book blog to hopefully come very soon!)
I’m finding reading even easier to add to my life now that I have my own treadmill in the basement. Yes, exercise still is a very important part of my life. Now I can walk the treadmill any time I want. I still have access to the gym at work for free. I do yoga twice a week and also try to fit in an abs or pilates class. This summer, I took advantage of Yoga in the Park. Two Friday evenings a month throughout the summer, the three biggest yoga studios in La Crosse rotated teaching a 45-minute class in Cameron Park in conjunction with the farmer’s market. The turnout was amazing, and with the unusually warm summer we had, they added three additional dates to the schedule. There were a total of nine classes, and I attended all of them. I was the only one. (Please wait while I pat myself on the back for that one…)
Yoga remains an important part of my schedule to help me remain relaxed and calm. 2012 also brought about more panic attacks and an actual diagnosis of anxiety. The pills help, but I welcome a more holistic approach to treating more of a mental disorder. I find that I really rely on my yoga classes for that. In November of 2011, La Crosse became the proud owner of a hot yoga studio. While it’s a little too expensive and high impact for me to do on a regular basis, I love it. When I had busy weeks and couldn’t make it to my yoga classes at the gym, I really loved that I could drop in and attend a class. What an amazing way to experience yoga!
Much of the anxiety I experienced this year was a direct result of my job. Without getting into details many of you wouldn’t understand, I became the project manager of a new product line at work back in March. I can actually remember the date, and it was a Friday. I know I had been chosen for a reason, but as I look back now, I can’t remember what that reason was. The following Monday, the department received the best news it could have ever hoped for. My supervisor of 4+ years was being transitioned into a new position. She was a horrible person and violated many ethical laws at work. I were glad to see her go. However, it was almost two months before they hired a replacement, and the project managers were really left to fend for themselves and make decisions. With that amount of responsibility and the addition of a flailing new product line on my plate to manage, it became a lot to handle.
Skipping ahead in the career story, a lot of things changed during the summer for product lines I worked on. People were more/less involved; people were eliminated/moved; expectations were shifted. An opportunity presented itself to 1) free me from the level of stress I had been under and 2) perhaps give me the opportunity to actually use my master’s degree. In early October, I accepted a different position within the company. It was very exciting. I was going to be part of a team of people I enjoyed working with and respected. We had the chance to do something really great…to create something out of nothing. However, seven days after I started my new position, the bottom fell out. The company decided to “downgrade’ the product, thus not needing as many staff. I was informed my position would be ending at the end of 2012 and I would be heading back to my old department.
So, as I say goodbye to 2012, I try to look forward to 2013. I turn 40 in 2013. Normally I feel about birthdays the same I feel about NYE: just another day. Turning 40, though, seems to be a different monster. I feel like there are all these things I haven’t achieved yet. I feel like I’m not as happy as I want to be. That said, I don’t really know what I want or how I want to change to make that happen. So, I will take baby steps and focus on the things I can control and things I can look forward to:
- Starting a new, old job
- Many new books and music arriving in January/February
- Cars on the track in Daytona in February
- Shinedown/3DG/POD show in March
- Tulips in April
I’ve been thinking about what I want out of 2013. I decided a few weeks ago that I wanted to become a roadie with a band. I feel like that solves many of my issues at once. (Did you know there are even instructions
online on how to become one? HA!) Check back with me in a year to see if that dream came true!
Here’s to a great 2013!